How this all got started

I'll warn you guys in advance. This post is nothing more than an insufficient account of the events that led me to having sex with guys. Don't worry, the sex should come in by the next post! If anyone has any questions, or wants to know the nitty gritty dirty details, let me know!

When I was a freshman in high school, I was definitely straight. The thought of even TOUCHING another guy pretty much made me want to throw up! I had told myself repeatedly that I would only date girls, simply because virtually no one my high school in southern Delaware is gay.

Sometime in March when I was 14, I was jerking off to some straight porn, until I accidentally stumbled upon a picture of two guys going at it. I guess some sort of switch was flipped in my mind. I was so attracted to it for some reason. I kept thinking "Holy shit. This is just wrong," as I unconsciously searched for more.

Needless to say, the habit grew on me, and eventually I would watch nothing but gay porn. Personally, I just found two guys having sex to be more aesthetic than a guy with a girl. The chiseled to slim features, the ability to switch roles, two loads instead of one, various types of men (I absolutely adore twinks!) everything about gay sex seemed so hot! But I still told myself I was nothing less than straight.

I started to visit gay teen chat rooms when I was 15, hoping I would find someone else to talk to. Little did I know, I would just be dealing with idiots who wanted nothing more than kiddie porn and roleplaying over the phone or IM.

My sexuality did straighten out for a while once I got a girlfriend. I stopped the porn, the sexual thoughts about men, and the stupid conversations with those ridiculous gay teens because I fell in love for a good while.

Unfortunately, our relationship didn't last very long, and I ended up leaving Delaware to go to New York City for college. After not having done anything sexual for a while, my attraction to men increased. I had this burning desire to try having sex with a guy at least once. And so, I ended up discovering Craigslist and Adam4Adam.

For a boy who was surrounded by nothing but straight men, I was pretty satisfied that there were at least a couple of services to allow men to meet men for sex. I was pretty scared when I actually posted my first Craigslist Ad. Being a complete virgin (besides a couple of blowjobs), I had ridiculously high standards. He had to look cute, he had to be white, and he had to have a place to stay. I eventually managed to find someone who fit my criteria to lose my virginity to, and boy was I surprised at who I found... (To be continued in the next post!)